Since we all came from a women, got our name from a women, and our game from a women. I wonder why we take from women, why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think its time we killed for our women, be real to our women, try to heal our women, cus if we don’t we’ll have a race of babies that will hate the ladies, who make the babies. And since a man can’t make one he has no right to tell a women when and where to create one.
Pretend for a moment I’m with you.
This hallow syringe will bring me to your doorstep,
and I will beg for you back.
Will you listen,
when the streets stand still
when the wind chill stops whispering in your ears
when the heavy moon turns away, leaving your empty eyes dark.
Will you take my brittle bones, and bury me
beneath the flower plot we made when I was twelve.
Pretend, I stand before you
but in place of your lost child
you find a ghost,
wringing the sound of her pleading eyes.
I should’ve really studied for this exam in advance.
Because right now, i am finding it extremely difficult to focus.
And i still have 4 chapters left to read.
So I usually don’t use this to just..vent, but i’m gonna.
Well, vent makes it sound like i’m upset, and i’m not. I have soo much going on right now, and so many emotions rushing through me, but i am happy with where i stand in life.
School is going soo good this semester. I’m striving for straight A’s, and it looks like i’m gonna get it. Just found out i got 101 on an exam i studied by butt off for. :]
And although I have been slacking as an RA this semester cuz of the leg situation, i’m glad i’m coming back next year, with the exception of rounds, i really do enjoy being an RA.
Speaking of leg situation, i went to the orthopedic on friday and he said my ankle doesn’t seem to be healing properly. My ankle is still really swollen and bruised, and it still hurts like a bitch to walk. I should’ve been completely fine and healed by 6 weeks, and its been almost 8 weeks and i still can’t walk without wincing. He sent me to get an MRI, which i’ll be getting next sunday, and then he’ll let me know the results a week later at my next appointment. Either everything is fine and i’m just a slow healer (i hope this is the case) or i might have some chip in the bone or something like that. If i do have a chip and its in place, i get to be in a hard cast again for a few more weeks. If i have a chip and its not in place, i’ll need surgery, and possible screws put into my ankle. Now all of this sounds scary enough as it is, but i think the absolute worst part is that if i end up having something wrong with me, my trip to Tennessee with Jess will probably be ruined.
Now this trip is probably the only thing i have been looking forward to for months. What could be better than spending the entire summer with my girl, in a new place that broaden my horizons, and being a just few hours away from our vacation spot in Florida. We have everything planned out, and everything was going perfect until the doctor told me this. So for the next two weeks, i’ll be very anxious and nervous, and hopefully, they’ll go by quickly.
On another note, last night, i was driving on the turnpike with Jess. As we passed my dad’s job, i called to let him know we were driving by, and he asked me to stop, even though i was with Jess. We met up and spent like an hour and half just hanging out, the three of us. He even offered Jess food a couple times, and offered to take us out to dinner. Now, coming from my very homophobic father who refuses to even acknowledge some of my other exes, this is a HUGE step. I was soo happy to have the opportunity to share time with my dad and my gf and not feel like i have to choose between them, like i usually do. I don’t wanna get too ahead of myself and get my hopes up, but maybe this means he’s slowly accepting it. And i really hope such is the case, because i am reallyyy falling for this girl, and i really do believe i will be with her for a looong time, if not forever. :]
Okayy, so i have a test on 5 chapters that i haven’t read tomorrow, so i better get to reading.
Children’s Book Explaining Homosexuality
the end of this made me tear up, just a little. :P
And that is the cutest thing ever.
” you’re 100% gay.
and 200% awesome.
making you 300% > any other person”
:] boost my confidence.
Spring break has come to an end. But spring starts today. :]
Let the countdowns begin…
42 days until school ends
52 days until I leave to TN
100 days until FL for bday week
So pumpeddd. :]
sooo much hw, & don’t wanna do it.
why does spring break have to end? :[